there is an emptiness that won't go away, and that seems out of place for one reason

the out pouring of friendship, kindness and understanding that keeps flowing from my friends. it never stops and it keeps amazing me the people that have sent cards, left voice mails or sent e-mails. the only way to say it is to say it's incredible humbling.

i hope that as you read this you don't understand, you don't know the feeling of loss, it's only a though in your mind - that truly is my hope. but once you do, you will realize that no amount of cards, e-mails, or phone calls will ever fill the void that you feel.

all that said, you will eventually come to the realization that you are loved, and that won't stop - and as life goes on, you are needed, to be there for your friends, your family

life is hard - death is even harder

the death of a mother is about as hard as it gets

but we get by - and until it happens you don't realize the amount of love that is thrown at your life each day. to those people i just want to say thank you. right now i don't have the strength to really say what i feel, or how much i appreciate it but please know that it is felt and hopefully some day i will be able to return the sentiment.

times have changed

...times have changed, and times are strange,
here i come but i ain't the same

momma i'm coming home



hastings, mn - under the sky that is dropping a light snow fall. i don't know what to say other than call your mother and tell her you love her. hell, simply call her just to say hello. cause you can't imagine the pain and emptiness you will feel once that opportunity is gone. nothing will feel right and that is something you will have to get comfortable with. while amazing, no amount of cards, calls, e-mails or letters will ever fill that void. a dull, aching hung over feeling is what will latch on to you. a feeling that only a mother could make go away.

it's been hard - and is going to be hard for a while