the unreality of reality

10 years ago my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, and she fought it with the mayo
3 years ago it flared up out of remission, and she fought it with the mayo
3 weeks ago she was told the mayo couldn't help anymore

they wouldn't say how long, but said to expect months instead of years - they recomended calling hospice - none of us really know what to feel, and are trying to continue on as we normally have been for the past, well forever.

it's hard to put into words, it's hard to understand, it's hard to look down the road and realize what will be missed the most -

it's also hard to not dwell on this, to focus on the good, to make the most of the days, the weeks, the months, the years god willing, but that's what we'll do. be strong, be sad, but continue to be....